I'm crazy

Psychology
Academic field that studies the human mind and behavior.
And i think i'm learning it,but i'm turning into psycopath.
"They don't follow any life plan,
and it seems as if they are incapable of
experiencing any genuine emotion."
Well if that's the description of first stage, I'm sure i'm in that one.

"Father,Hallowed be your name,Your Kingdom come.
Give us each day our daily bread,
And forgive us our sins,And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil."

Yeah i said that prayer ,like a hundred times.
But you don't even lead me into temptation.
You didn't give me a choice except to accept it.
I'm still sane,at this moment anyway.
Make sure You prepared someone to kill me
When i'm fully turned into a psychopath.
For i will bring hell if You don't.

Faraway

Loving you,is it wrong ?
Why must i receive this much punishment
The words they said is like pricking a needle into my heart
The fear inside my heart
I don't know what must be done to let it go

I've already felt tired
I can only think to sleep in your arms
Don't care what is wrong in others sight anymore
The truth and the false in our story
I have no more power to differentiate them

You don't know that sadness of mine
You have pushed my caution far away
I know that one day you will realize
The person who truly loves you has been receiving sorrow alone

Burden

Mi...pi ane rindu sama mi...
Pi rindu sama Leon n mimi...
Pi ane capek liau...
Pi cuma mau tidur di pelukan mi...

Maafin pi ya udah hancurin semuanya...
Always take care mi...
I love you...

My Cursed

I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart
Cause I like to keep my issues strong
It's always darkest before the dawn

I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't
So here's to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
And I'm ready to suffer and I'm ready to hope
It's a shot in the dark aimed right at my throat
Cause looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Well what the hell I'm gonna let it happen to me

How am i supposed...

I could hardly believe it
When I heard the news today
I had to come and get it straight from you
They said you were leavin'
Someone's swept your heart away
From the look upon your face,
I see it's true
So tell me all about it
Tell me about the plans you're makin'
Then tell me one thing more before I go

Tell me how am supposed to live without you
Now that I've been lovin' you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
How am I supposed to carry on
When all that I've been livin 'for is gone

I didn't come here for cryin'
Didn't come here to breakdown
It's just a dream of mine is coming to an end
And how can I blame you
When I build my world around
The hope that one day we'd be so much
More than friends
And I don't wanna know the price I'm
Gonna pay for dreaming
When even now it's more than I can take

When this time comes...

When someday...you remind of me...
I can tell you now...that i'm still the same person...
With passion to love,care,and a heart.
Only now i'm with morphines to ease my unease pain.

After all this time...I still believe in you.
That you will come back to me someday,
That you got the same love like me,

My friends,keep telling me not to dwell in the past.
What they do not know is the past is dwelling on me,
I want to see him grow,i want to take him to school,
I want to see him grounded in school for getting a fight,i want to see him walk on the aisle,
Just like i did,only that i failed to walk through everything else beside that.

When you remember me,even once after this...
I want you to know,i believe in you.
Even my hope is about to crumble,
And i'm sorry,i realized i'm the one who changed you into someone else.
I love you.

My sworn

Do you take her,to be your wife ?
Do you promise to be true to her in good times and in bad,
In sickness and in health,
To love her and honor her all the days of your life?

Yes,I do.